Wednesday, November 21, 2007

UPDATE

If you've wondered where I  have been away for the past two weeks, I have been hunting.  Some wonderful friends lovingly conspired to give me two diversions that I enjoyed immensly.  I am blessed with friends, dear friends and I feel loved intensly.

If any of my regular readers are concerned about me hunting, you need to understand something about my calling. I am called of God to be a missionary to Rednecks. As any missional person should, I have adapted to the culture I am attempting to reach for Christ. Tammy and I stopped thinking that the term "Redneck" was a punch-line a long time ago. I love to hunt, so It turns out there was a Redneck deep down inside.

Grief marks the days, weeks and now months since Tammy went home to our Lord Jesus.  It is as difficult today as it was in the beginning only in different ways.  I still wonder at times how this could possibly have happened.  I find myself asking God to wake me from this nightmare so I can walk into our home and find her there, but I do not awaken because the nightmare is all too real.  I am consumed with tears at times I cannot predict.  I feel the daily loss of her powerful presence in my life.  She held the key to my heart.  She knew how to unlock me and she knew how to fix what often failed in me simply by her soft, gentle hand on my broad chest. 
 
I must tell you what causes me awe in these days.  I must share this because of the powerful and valuable resource it has become to me.  I am compelled to tell you that I can feel in a tangible way the prayers of people.  It happens so often that I am no longer suprised when someone tells me that the Lord put me on their heart compelling them to pray for me.  That is the work of the Holy Spirit prompting us to prayer.  Prayer is not the least we can do for a hurting and grieving heart, it is the ultimate act.  I am sustained by the prayers of the saints.  This must have been what Paul felt in prison, knowing that there were distant great hearted people who stayed on their knees on his behalf.  
 
Pray for those who are hurting.  Pray for the wounded to be healed.  Pray for the joy of the Lord to be the strength for those who have few reasons for joy.  Pray because the mighty power of God awaits our prayers.  Pray and interceed for those in authority.  Pray and thank you for praying for me and my children.  We want to do more than just awaken from this nightmare.  We want to awaken in our souls to the new life God has for us in Christ.  We have not experience yet all that our God has in store for us. 
 
We wait upon the Lord!
Ed LItton

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I HAVE, I DO, AND I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY. KNOW IT IS ONLY GOD'S GRACE THAT HAS BROUGHT YOU THIS FAR.YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW WHERE YOU ARE HAS CAUSED ME TO QUESTION WHERE I SHOULD BE,AND WHO, AND WHAT IS IMPORTANT. WHAT'S IMPORTANT TO HIM, IS WHAT REALLY NEEDS TO BE IMPORTANT TO ME. MAY HIS LOVE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT YOU.

Anonymous said...

If you haven't heard this yet-it's so worth it.

It's on youtube-it's called
Logan, the sky angel cowboy.

Hunting is a good place to be right now-'lots of green pastures and still waters' there.

tjmharley@aol.com said...

Pastor Ed

I read your blog daily, its been a blessing to me and my family. I have been printing it and mailing to my sister in law. She lost her husband to cancer a year ago in Jan. It has been a tremendous comfort to her. We pray for and your family. The sky angel cowboy was so touching to me. Thanks so much to the anonymous sender for such a blessing.

Your Friend in Christ

Terry Mosley

Anonymous said...

Although I did not know you or Tammy I have gleaned much from your blogs. I lost my husband two years ago and everything you are writing is exactly how I felt and am still feeling but I did not know how to write my feelings down. I am sure it is good therapy. God is so gracious and still blesses us so much through grief. My boys and I continue to pray for you. We will pray especially through the holidays.

Anonymous said...

As I look to the wife that God sent me two years ago, a wife that I am deeply in love with, I can't even imagine the idea of losing her.

Our wives especially shine during the holidays, which especially burdens my heart for you and yours.

May God Himself give you peace beyond all reason in these times.

Stoots Family said...

Pastor Ed,
Thank you so much for your encouraging message that I saw in church this morning at Dayspring! God is so awesome. Just when I needed some encouragement as I suffer the loss of my daddy, He sends me a message through you. Thank you again. Please know that you are continuously in our prayers.
Much love,
The Stoots,
Kevin, Jolene, Myles & Connor

tania said...

i was sent to read your blog from my SIL cindy fulks. i just wanted to say that i have found comfort in every single word you've typed----and i too understand. i can understand the roller coaster of emotions that you are experiencing since i lost my mom in july, of a sudden massive heart attack with no prior warning signs. so THANK YOU for being vulnerable and for sharing such a deep part of your emotions.